nostaligia

so lately, for these past two weeks, i've been thinking about how things were in the past. especially during sophomore year.
i was reading through so many blog entries of mine, so many pictures, and little notes and cards that my friends had written for me, and it just made me realize how much i miss how many things used to be.
i miss how strong certain friendships were than they are now, how certain relationships have changed so much, and how everything just in general is different.
maybe its just junior year taking its toll on me, or this lack of sleep, or both.
HAHAHA whatever, better days are yet to come, i can just feel it
now i must go study for apush math etc.

"I'm so sorry that it didn't work out but I'm moving on,
I'm so sorry but it's over now, the pain is gone."

kbye

november 1

YAY its finally november!
that means veterans day is coming up, then thanksgiving break, then winter break then christmas, then new years, then F-F-F-FORMAL?!?!
did formal season officially start yet? cus isnt formal the next dance :o
iono, but it seems like everyones stressing out about it already, and the dance isnt for another 2-3 months? HAHA
but yeah, its stressful, esp with the guys not knowing who to ask and whatnot. WHATEVER
halloween was whatever, it was lowells birthday too! happy birthday you uglee bebotface. HAHA youre finally 16!
and for all those who went to the halloween dance, I HOPE YOU GUYS HAD FUN! thanks for coming out and supporting our class =)this goes towards your prom!! and even though i only got to dance for less than an hour, it was still pretty fun.
and yeah, i hope november goes by REALLY fast! i just want 1st semester to be over with -___-

i want october to be over with already.
this month has been so stressful!
the quarters ending soon, thank goodness grades dont count. -_-






i really, really want closure.

i want to blog.
but i cant.
there's simply not enough time
junior year, i hate you.
but i guess i have enough time to sum everything up in a nutshell
junior year has taught me to prioritize things (i guess) with the frequent tests, quizzes, and pop essays.
i have to stay strong, i cant give in! i have to move on and go with the flow..
but a part of me wants things back to the way they were before, 7 months ago.
life will keep going, i just cant get left behind!

fuck junior year
its only been 3 weeks, and yet i am BOMBARDED with shit to do
so much apush hw, i need to read catcher in the rye, and then do id terms for tonight.
some people said junior year was their most favorite year in high school. FUCK THAT!
they crazy.




for some odd reason, that picture really spoke out to me.
i dont know, i guess its back to square one.
only 2352359 more weeks of junior year to go.

school! :(

so..summer is officially over. school starts in 3 days! this summer went by too fast. but overall, it was fun. it had its ridiculous ups and downs, but i guess i just learned from all those experiences. im thankful for the people i played with this summer, and for all the new people i met also! i went back to school shopping, but didnt find much :[ at least i got my haircut HAHAH!
but other than that, here's my final 2009-2010 junior year schedule!

1. AP Lang (Palmieri)
2. AP USH (Harp)
3. CLS (Mustillo)
4. AP Spanish (Homstad)
5. Physics H (Tseng)
6. Pre-Calc (Bradshaw)
7. Sports (XC 1st Q, Track/Field 3rd Q)

ehh, i have mixed feelings about my schedule. The only problem I have with my schedule is that I really wanted Verrett as my APUSH teacher, but I guess you can't have everything in life! HAHA. I hope I don't DIE this year. shoot.. I'm like a third done with memorizing my presidents yaaay hahaha.
I really have to focus on school this year. I need to know when NOT to hang out with friends when I should be studying, and no more girls for me. HAHA :(
Well, its time to make the best of Junior year!if i fuck up this year, I aint going to college. HAHAH ):

a promise is a promise

so this summer has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride, just like sophomore year had been. -_- i just want some stability right now!
what i thought was going to be something successful and somewhat consistent, ended up being flipped upside down, and totally what i wasnt expecting.
it left such a bad taste in my mouth, being caught so vulnerable like that.
even though i was left being even more bitter and pissed off, i think i learned something from it. actually, nvm.
One time a friend had randomly said "B****es can be tamed" to me. I thought it was a funny joke, but in my case, i think its completely false HAHA -_-
Oh well, so much for being a "late bloomer".. lowell you're on your own HAHA jk
but at least PSYCH IS OVER!!! <3 and elite boot camp is OVER!! well not really, i get a week break and then i only have to go 2-3 times a week YAYAY :D haha
so pretty much summer started for me right now. so late -_- school's in like..3 weeks. and did i start memorizing my presidents yet? no i have not. shoot LOL
volunteering is pretty fun now, now that i've met more people!! who knew fobs could be so outgoing HAHA :D and i think im learning more korean from them, because their making fun of me actually motivates me to learn the language more better HAHA!

a promise is a promise, i'll forget about everything after.