nostaligia

so lately, for these past two weeks, i've been thinking about how things were in the past. especially during sophomore year.
i was reading through so many blog entries of mine, so many pictures, and little notes and cards that my friends had written for me, and it just made me realize how much i miss how many things used to be.
i miss how strong certain friendships were than they are now, how certain relationships have changed so much, and how everything just in general is different.
maybe its just junior year taking its toll on me, or this lack of sleep, or both.
HAHAHA whatever, better days are yet to come, i can just feel it
now i must go study for apush math etc.

"I'm so sorry that it didn't work out but I'm moving on,
I'm so sorry but it's over now, the pain is gone."

kbye

november 1

YAY its finally november!
that means veterans day is coming up, then thanksgiving break, then winter break then christmas, then new years, then F-F-F-FORMAL?!?!
did formal season officially start yet? cus isnt formal the next dance :o
iono, but it seems like everyones stressing out about it already, and the dance isnt for another 2-3 months? HAHA
but yeah, its stressful, esp with the guys not knowing who to ask and whatnot. WHATEVER
halloween was whatever, it was lowells birthday too! happy birthday you uglee bebotface. HAHA youre finally 16!
and for all those who went to the halloween dance, I HOPE YOU GUYS HAD FUN! thanks for coming out and supporting our class =)this goes towards your prom!! and even though i only got to dance for less than an hour, it was still pretty fun.
and yeah, i hope november goes by REALLY fast! i just want 1st semester to be over with -___-

i want october to be over with already.
this month has been so stressful!
the quarters ending soon, thank goodness grades dont count. -_-






i really, really want closure.

i want to blog.
but i cant.
there's simply not enough time
junior year, i hate you.
but i guess i have enough time to sum everything up in a nutshell
junior year has taught me to prioritize things (i guess) with the frequent tests, quizzes, and pop essays.
i have to stay strong, i cant give in! i have to move on and go with the flow..
but a part of me wants things back to the way they were before, 7 months ago.
life will keep going, i just cant get left behind!

fuck junior year
its only been 3 weeks, and yet i am BOMBARDED with shit to do
so much apush hw, i need to read catcher in the rye, and then do id terms for tonight.
some people said junior year was their most favorite year in high school. FUCK THAT!
they crazy.




for some odd reason, that picture really spoke out to me.
i dont know, i guess its back to square one.
only 2352359 more weeks of junior year to go.

school! :(

so..summer is officially over. school starts in 3 days! this summer went by too fast. but overall, it was fun. it had its ridiculous ups and downs, but i guess i just learned from all those experiences. im thankful for the people i played with this summer, and for all the new people i met also! i went back to school shopping, but didnt find much :[ at least i got my haircut HAHAH!
but other than that, here's my final 2009-2010 junior year schedule!

1. AP Lang (Palmieri)
2. AP USH (Harp)
3. CLS (Mustillo)
4. AP Spanish (Homstad)
5. Physics H (Tseng)
6. Pre-Calc (Bradshaw)
7. Sports (XC 1st Q, Track/Field 3rd Q)

ehh, i have mixed feelings about my schedule. The only problem I have with my schedule is that I really wanted Verrett as my APUSH teacher, but I guess you can't have everything in life! HAHA. I hope I don't DIE this year. shoot.. I'm like a third done with memorizing my presidents yaaay hahaha.
I really have to focus on school this year. I need to know when NOT to hang out with friends when I should be studying, and no more girls for me. HAHA :(
Well, its time to make the best of Junior year!if i fuck up this year, I aint going to college. HAHAH ):

a promise is a promise

so this summer has been one hell of a rollercoaster ride, just like sophomore year had been. -_- i just want some stability right now!
what i thought was going to be something successful and somewhat consistent, ended up being flipped upside down, and totally what i wasnt expecting.
it left such a bad taste in my mouth, being caught so vulnerable like that.
even though i was left being even more bitter and pissed off, i think i learned something from it. actually, nvm.
One time a friend had randomly said "B****es can be tamed" to me. I thought it was a funny joke, but in my case, i think its completely false HAHA -_-
Oh well, so much for being a "late bloomer".. lowell you're on your own HAHA jk
but at least PSYCH IS OVER!!! <3 and elite boot camp is OVER!! well not really, i get a week break and then i only have to go 2-3 times a week YAYAY :D haha
so pretty much summer started for me right now. so late -_- school's in like..3 weeks. and did i start memorizing my presidents yet? no i have not. shoot LOL
volunteering is pretty fun now, now that i've met more people!! who knew fobs could be so outgoing HAHA :D and i think im learning more korean from them, because their making fun of me actually motivates me to learn the language more better HAHA!

a promise is a promise, i'll forget about everything after.

updatee

SO MUCH HAS BEEN GOING ON. well sort of, not really.
it just feels like it to me HAHAHA! :D
so yeah, i got a car. ITS MY BABY. her name's daisy, and shes beautiful.
its hard keeping things on the dl. people somehow always find a way to find out about it. but its okay, im still trying!! HAHA
this is for lowell only: "we're kinda late.." HAHAHAAH :P
btw it was fun cruising around with you guys ;D ;D
lets do that again! best day ever so far HAHAHAH
but elite and psych end this week, im SO EXCITED OMFG.
well i get a one week break from elite, then i have to go back =[ BUT STILL, ITS ONE WEEK. :(
but shoot, summers almost over..and i did absolutely nothing. AHHHH
I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!!
there are still so many things i want to do!!
sighface whatever.
its time to cram my summer with activities heheh =]

FINALLY SUMMERS BECOMING FUNNN :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

reform

I WANT AUGUST TO COME =( cus thats when i can get my car WITH INSURANCE!! hehee im so excited. on friday we went to the beach (which was a bust because of all the traffic there..it took us like an hour or two to find parking -_-) and then went to ggpc with the gooks, which was also a bust LOOL the computers kept freezing so i couldnt play any of the games. :( but the drive back was amazingly fun. timo and alex kept racing each other and cutting each other off and i felt like crap cus i got my licenses before them and i didnt have a car so i couldnt partake in the fun :( HAHAH but its okay i guess. when i get my car though, im gonna crazy for the first week so watch out! :O HAHA jk.
but i realized one thing about myself that i need to fix. I need to stop being so lazy, because i realized thats how i lose contact with friends that i want to actually keep. for example, sometimes i get too lazy to text back my friends HAHA im sorry guys :'( and it hit me that i could be closer to so many more people if i had just taken the effort to respond to a simple text! :( so yeah, from here on out, i promise to try to make the effort to respond back HEHE!
so my summer has been pretty dandy. i got lots of crap to do today though -_-
time to memorize 250 vocab words, write my essay, and study for my psych midterm. HAHA gg


it feels goooood getting over it and moving on with my life

new blog

iono why, but i just felt it was necessary for me to create a new blog.
i guess a part of me is ready to throw away and forget about certain things that occurred in the past couple months of my life. and i guess thats a good thing!
a fresh new start. a new me. well not technically a new me, but whatever HAHA!

summers been whatever, elite/psych has been dominating my life. i dont have time to play with the people that i promised to play with that dont go to elite :[ HAHA sorrry!
but ill play with them soon. yeeeaaah.
on top of that, i just started volunteering as a TA for students with autism or down syndrome. volunteering with them has really opened my eyes to them. i learned that they need a lot more attention and care if they really want to strive. its really inspirational to see even children with autism have an urge to learn and open up their minds to new things. HAHA my kid is so unique..? lol i cant think of a word to describe him. its 'ineffable' HAHA i dont know if i used that word right but whaatever. :)
to start off, his name is Eugene. he doesnt really talk much, and the only words he says is 'peepee' and thats only when he needs to use the restroom LMFAO. you dont wanna know the other signs he gives off when he wants to use the restroom -_- but other than that, he's really adorable. he's very affectionate, and once you get close to him and he trusts you, he starts following you around everywhere and holds your hand. HAHA its really cute honestly :D but he can get supaa hyper sometimes. to the point where he wont listen to you or pay attention to the task given at hand LMFAO. and when i ask him to draw something (like a butterfly), he just scribbles all over the paper. and the funny thing about it is that i have to call it amazing and beautiful in order to be encouraging towards him HAHA! but i guess thats their way of expressing the artistic side within them. x)

and yeah, thats pretty much my summer. besides hanging out with alex all day, thats about it! elite, psych, and volunteering. i got my license, but i dont even have a car. how useless! -_- i should be memorizing my 50 vocab words, but i really dont want to right now.


reminder to self: pay for psych. pay for parking ticket.

WHOO this has been the first post of my blog! yay